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Learning lessons from pain.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Saint Gianna continue to inspire us and pray for us and lead us to the Sacred Heart of Our Lord Jesus Christ through the Immaculate Heart of Mary!! Posted by Hello
Today was sort of a difficult day for me in some ways. I found out that for the years that I was so very sick I had been taken advantage of financially. I of course was mad as all get out and sad but I think that rather than focusing on the bad I need rather to offer it all up to Our Saving Lord and His Mother that the person(s) will find Christ. I realize that I have to do all I can to make sure that does not happen again but rather than crying over spilt milk so to speak I need to offer it to the Divine Mercy of God. It is difficult for me to admit times when I have been more vulnerable but it is in that weakened state that Christ became more manifest to my soul. I also need to remember times when before I honestly tried to follow Our Lord when I too have hurt others by my deeds and pray for those that I have ever led astray. Recently one of my biggest fears has been that in my previous life when I did not measure up to the dignity that we are all called to and in those times that I might have led others away from Christ. Alas, all I can do is offer the past to the Divine Mercy- the future to Divine Providence and live in the present as best I can in the holiness we are all called to. This lesson I learned from Saint Gianna Berreta Molla today in prayer and meditation and so I am grateful especially to her for teaching me this. Maybe, by offering up this day's suffering to God then not only will I grow closer to Him but also grace may be poured out upon those who caused harm. So, maybe, by offering this up as a reparation good can come out of pain. While I would be foolish to let certain things happen again and again and need to better prepare for such times I also need to be grateful for it was through those hard and difficult times that I leaned on Christ so very much. Maybe, as you read the little struggles of mine you will see that if this guy can find a reason to rejoyce and a reason to hope in Christ Our Lord that there might actually be something to this God so many folks proclaim. We all get hurt in life but if we allow Christ to transform that pain into joy in our souls then it is not in vain. For those I have hurt in the past I am sorry- please forgive me and for those who have hurt me I forgive you and offer my prayers and sufferings and joys for you. Lord Jesus Christ transform me and transform the world in Love and Truth. Amen.
Omnia Pro Iesu Per Mariam!!
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