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The proving ground

Friday, October 21, 2005
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Praised be Jesus Christ!! Now and Forever!!
I think it is prudent that it be noted that I have found that sometimes even in prayer we have to use discernment and especially practice humility and obedience. There are times when our eyes are opened, at least it has happened with me, in prayer to Truth. There are also times when because of a variety of reasons what seems like something from God may be in fact not of God. That I feel is where obedience and humility come in especially in discernment. Maybe in a way humility and obedience become the proving ground for the soul. There is pride which we normally associate with temporal things but there is also spiritual pride which is rooted in disobedience. I must drive priests, spiritual directors and friends crazy I think with constant questions. I feel I must check and re check myself to make sure that either the evil one or my own over active mind is not leading me on a wild goose chase. I think in these times of increased darkness we (even the faithful) be very cautious that we not be lead astray nor lead anyone else astray. For myself the important virtues I must pray for is humility and obedience in increased amounts. I think that in humility and obedience the soul finds the he or she can 'fly with the wings of eagles'. With disobedience and pride (spiritual or temporal) we are chained down.
Lately I have been thinking of St. Pio (Padre Pio) and I have to remind myself that for years he shut himself off out of obedience to proper authority. I think primary that in Sacred Scripture and in Magisterial Teaching that it is stated that there will be so many false prophets towards the times of tribulation because so many are disobedient. My personal view is that if I can not be obedient to a spiritual director or a Bishop or even to the wise advise of a trusted friend then I can not really be obedient to Christ Jesus. Now with that said I must point out so as to not lead anyone astray by my personal comment above and previous postings that I am definitely not a seer, a prophet or a mystic or anything like that. Nope, I am trying to live as a servant of Christ and His Church in accordance with my state of life and I struggle to do that at all times well. So, alas I am one very ordinary and simple convert who is lucky enough to tell his very ordinary story. It is the story of Christ- His Passion, Death, Resurrection and Glorious Second Coming that is the extraordinary story that must be told.
So, I pray this evening and constantly for the grace of obedience and humility that will help us all to better serve Our Lord Jesus Christ.
Omni Pro Iesu Per Mariam!!
Ed




O Jesus, meek and humble of heart,
Hear me.

From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being loved,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being extolled,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being honored,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being praised,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being preferred to others,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being consulted,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being approved,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

From the fear of being humiliated,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being despised,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of suffering rebukes,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being calumniated,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being forgotten,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being ridiculed,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being wronged,
Deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being suspected,
Deliver me, O Jesus.

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be esteemed more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be chosen and I set aside,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be praised and I go unnoticed,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be preferred to me in everything,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may become holier than I,
provided that I may become as holy as I should,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
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